Watching them sleep is so surreal. I often ask myself how I got so lucky? Sure, they have their moments as any 2 and five year old do, but in reality, they are just so good. Then it makes my heart hurt as I realize I want so much more for them. I want to be able to give them the world, I just want to be able to shower them with gifts anytime I wanted. To take them places they want to go without question, just to see the smiles on their sweet faces and watch them light up as they get to explore new things. It’s not just about the financial part, because that’s a huge aspect, it’s about my anxiety and the limitations it still hold on me even though it’s so much better then it use to be. As a stay home mom I find that I limit myself, tell myself no more often then I need to, but by doing that, I prevent myself, and my kids from exploring. This week I want to change that, I want to get out of my comfort zone more this week, take them to explore, try new things, the financial part will come soon, I just have to be patient, and mindful, and not give up. I just want these babies to enjoy life, more then I did ask a kid, and to not be fearful of the world around them, because there is still some good left in it, and I want to teach them how to continue that good, to continue the exploration, all the questions, and all the wonder this world is missing.